Inconsiderate

Still not perfect

What do I want?

Having these unsure thoughts?

It's not fair on you nor to me

Everything a girl could want 

But still not quite there

Seem to be attracted to the ones that

Do not suit my ideal

You chased him - now what?

Are you going to let things slip away?

Far from you but heavy on your heart

Still not quite there 

Why is there something missing?

I asked - he gave - turned up

Still not good enough

Why am I not excited?

Friends screaming excited 

You a shell - sharing and showing the beauty outside

But hollow within

Empty and desolate

Your heart heavy

Do you like the chase?

So now what?

Settle down have kids?

No, not with you.

Maybe, just not yet

Yes, to be safe

Lack of submissiveness 

You're too feisty for a brother

Apologetic

Shit

So easy to pick holes 

In something you once wanted

But now want to get rid of

Selfish?